Start of Spring in the snow

Yay we started Spring semester today! Seriously spring is going to be boring. Thursdays are my busy day, I have 4 classes in a row = (. I started the morning with ESS and that will be just fine, just another gen ed. Then I have the classy Old Testament and man I just love the huge gen ed classes, they're the greatest. Then I shimmy over to PSY110 which I am sure I will benefit from however it is really laid back and my small group leader is my RD..which is cool I guess I really like Mal, I just kinda wanted to work with someone new. Lastly I have EDU200 which really shouldn't even be a class. Seriously. not worth the time or money, but it is required. Tomorrow I have world lit and thats it. Here is my pickle about tomorrow, I really want to go home, I want to see Gary, I want to see my parents, I want to go home. But we are getting all of this snow and everyone is freaking out and it's not smart to drive in the heavy snow, and the more we get the harder it is to get somewhere and who knows if I will be able to get my car out of the mudpit where I park. Bummer.

Today was cool though, whenever we start new classes it always seems like its not real and like everything is so far off in the distance, but really it isn't. So tonight I started some homework that is due next tuesday just to get it out of the way, I always feel better when it is done early. However I think I should have done more and played less guitar hero, but oh well what can I do about it now. NOTHING. = )

So I am a loser teacher freak, let me explain. I got excited today because I knew when I would get the syllabus from the professors that I could go back to my room and orgainze my folders and homework book. I love to orgainze and plan. Then I got to color coordinate and staple. Seriously I love this stuff. Then I learned about everything in the teacher workroom and man that place is like a dream to me. Seriously I don't think you guys understand. It just made me realize how much I want to be a teacher. = )

End of the month, end of a chapter

So after a wonderful night with Mary I came back to the not as nice Muffitt and Kelsey was coming over to get the last of her things. It really didn't take us very long, only 2 or 3 trips because most of the stuff in the room is mine. The room looks empty but not really because there is so much of my stuff here. I have spread it out so now everything looks a little more empty but i think it will all be okay. There have been a lot of things going on with in me that have been bothering me. I have come to understand that there really is nothing that I can do about this, I can do some of the changes but not all of the changes. God will have to do the rest and I really need to trust in Him and have Faith, because that's what its all about right? = /

Goodbye, Hello, Goodbye

Today we finished 'J' Term, YAY! My computer class was really quite simple and I am glad that I had that class, it was a nice way to ease my back into school. We took our final this morning and I knew that I could miss 12 points in order for me to keep my A. However there were probably about 10 questions out of the 90 that I didn't know, couldn't remember, or got mixed up with something else. So now I am all worried about not getting an A, because I really want one and have worked for one, but because I got all messed up who knows and that makes me a little ticked. So goodbye J term and Shasha Wu, it was fun, and really fast.

Hello spring semester! It is literally right around the corner. I am excited right now but I am really nervous. I was going to say I am worried about only 2 of my classes but that is totally wrong, I am worried about all 6 of them. They're all different classes, but some pretty cool ones I guess. What I am the most worried about is everything that I need to do this semester that isn't even related to a class. All of the tests and things I need to take for Education are fast approaching, and I need to get them all sorted out and taken care of because this is all going by a lot faster than I thought. So Hello spring and stress.

Goodbye Kelsey and 1st semester. Kelsey came back today and started to move some of her stuff and it's a little weird. I've got plans for my room but I didn't realize how lonely I actually am. However I think I will grow from it. It is just all really weird because so many things have changed from 1st semester to now and I am sure they will continue to change.

Going to Mary's tonight for another sleep over. Sleep overs are now equal to getting coffee. They're magical.

A Little Secret To Share

Oooh I have a small secret. I really like classical music. Not only is it good music to have on when you study, I just really like it. I understand music, it makes so much sense to me, there is no second guessing it. I have a lot of classical music on my computer, and as i just found out 14 songs out of my top 25 played on itunes are classical. For me every song tells a story, not only the songs with a clear story told with words, but the stories that come just from the music. I just really love it, and obviously listen to it, a lot.

Today I played catch up with my friends from back home, but aren't actually there. My two best friends from high school are not very close to where I am. Erin, goes to Michigan State, and Kelly goes to the Savannah College of Art and Design. We're all in totally different places but always make time to come back to each other and regroup. It's really nice to talk to them and hear about what is going on with them, and all of our schools are so different, and all of the people and stories. I should also be studying for my CPS150 exam, but I just really don't want to. However I really don't want to lose my A in the class, so i figured it out that I can only miss 12 points to keep my A. A little bit of pressure. Along with that I am kinda nervous for spring to start, new classes always frighten me because it is the unknown, but I think I will be fine. And books are just way to expensive. Bummer. I also talked to my mom and dad today (I spent a lot of my day on the phone) and it was nice to talk to them, and my mom loves to keep me updated on what is going on at home and in Billtown or whatever. Her big news was the picture of me in the mall got moved to the center. She is proud. = )

Then there is tomorrow, it's the 29th, and the 29th hold some memories that would make tomorrow a big day, but I think with everything that is going on I will forget about it. And lastly a little shout out to Brian for reading my blog, thank you. = )

My Friends are getting married?

Sunday can be a wonderful day to praise the lord and relax, or a day filled with stress because Monday is the next day. Mine went both ways. I woke up this morning-excuse me, afternoon with a horrible sore throat and was ticked that I missed church, because I was going to drive to my home church and suprise my parents, but I slept right through that one. However I woke up and sounded like a man/ mouse and was a little worried. But I just prayed with my mommy over the phone, and I felt better. High five God. Then I heard a voice outside my door, and I was a little confused because there are only 5 people on my floor and to my suprise there was Britney! YAY I haven't seen her since before christmas break, it was such an awesome suprise. So I invited her into my room and we chatted and got everything caught up, and I started to watch Juno online and I felt really guilty because I was stealing it so I stopped and we went for some great Chinese.

Then Melody and I needed to do our final project due tomorrow for Shasha Wu. It's been a lot of fun to work with Melody for J Term because I didn't get to know her that well during the fall and this has been the perfect oportunity. So we started our project and I make her laugh apparently with every little thing I say so we are always laughing. We worked for about 2 hours and attempted to make Jake bring us food and drink, but that one fell through so we met him at the Cougar Den. I have met Jake before but haven't spent a lot of time with him. So the three of us sat down for a snack and ended up sitting there for an hour as I told them the famed deer stories. Then Jake asked something that really made me think, he asked me if it is weird to have someone my age, even more a friend, who is engaged and getting married? And I was like you know it actually is a little weird. For me it just seems like marriage and weddings is something far in the distance and something not going on with the people around me but thats wrong, and that is going to keep changing, and it reminded me that I was growing up. Bummer, it was fun to play with Barbie's for hours, oh well I guess that's why you have kids. So Melody and I went back to the famed Library and she just started talking about the wedding plans, and then told me the whole story of she and Jake, and we discussed for a long time that feeling of "the one" and it's really weird that one of my friends has found "the one" and knows it.

It took Melody and I 8 hours to complete our project and practice it. We were forced to leave the Library at 2, and when I left I was in serious pain because we had laughed so hard. We both reached that point in the night where EVERYTHING was funny, well I mean putting a picture of your professor in your presentation as a joke with an arrow to him that says cage fighter, is pretty funny, along with the chick and egg picture. It was just really fun, and the best project I have ever done.

To conclude my sunday I finally talked to my roomate Kelsey. She called me and I could tell she was nervous to talk to me. Long story short she is going to move to Gainey but she made it very clear it is no reason because of me. She really wasn't planning on coming back for this semester but her parents wanted her to complete a year and then next fall she has a wonderful opportunity for an internship at the international house of prayer in Kansas City. She is someone who really needs a big support system and change, and all of that is in Gainey for her. We both had prayed about it and both were at peace about it and knew it was the right thing to do. The only thing for me is that I am alone, which for some people would be a dream, and really it is nice because its like being at home again. However this weekend I was really alone, because of course I have been left alone at home when my parents go on vacation or whatever but I have ALWAYS had my dogs, and even though they're dogs I know that Gary will bark if someone busts into our house and just having him there I feel safe, and I can talk to him and he always listens and understands. = ) But I had no one yesterday because all of my friends were gone. Just me, and I really didn't like it. I really didn't like it when someone came and knocked at my window at 1 in the morning and I was all alone in my room, and Gary wasn't here to bark. (so i followed the tracks today and this person was sneeky and had long strides) However the more alone time I have, the more time I will have to spend with God and go to him for my comfort.

Trying something new

I doubt that anyone will actually read this since no one knows I have this. However I really like to write my thoughts and happenings, so why not do it here since I used to have a blog on here. About 5 years ago. So lets get started with today.

Today and yesterday made for great memories. My friend Mary and I pretty much spent the weekend together. We went to the school event, Skating for Tukes, and golly gee whizz it was really fun. I took skating lessons several years ago but I am comfortable on the ice and really enjoy it, and it was really fun to go with Mary who hasn't done as much skating. She was so impressive, everytime she was about to fall she caught herself and had such grace. There were a lot of people there obviously that we knew from school, and we just had so much fun! Then after our skating adventure we had a classic "spend the night." I haven't had a spend the night since christmas break, and for girls it is so much fun, because we just talk and talk and eat chocolate and talk and watch movies, it really is great. So that is exactly what we did, and I am a person who gets really loopy at night and get bonkers so Mary got to witness it, and I personally think that is when I am the most fun to be around because there is nothing holding me back. We woke up with enough time to eat breakfast at 1 and spent some more time together before she made the long walk back to her dorm. Until a few hours later she gave me a call.

Mary got invited by our P.A. to play some broomball and she asked me to come with her. I really thought about saying no because I had a friend coming over at 8 and we were going to play at 7. However I thought about how I really want to be different and try new things and not be afraid of the unknown. So I bundled up and went to play. I am not a very competitive person when it comes to really physical games because I get very intimidated and back down. However Mary takes it by the horns and runs. She was so impressive, we played with a few other girls and some guys and she was as good if not better than the guys. The only thing that bugs me is that when you play with guys they're always very considerate of girls but they always yell at you and tell you what to do and make you feel dumb and like they don't want you on their team. Oh well poo on them because I enjoyed myself.

After that adventure I came back to my room and my friend Alex came over and we watched the best movie in the world. The Adventures of Milo and Otis I haven't watched this movie in years, and man was it worth it. Alex was the perfect person to watch it with because we both share a love for baby animals, and we played with playdough and played some wii and had a good time. It's nice to just hang out with a guy and have no pressures and be yourself because they're a good friend. So a thanks goes out to Alex.

Lastly, I have this little issue. I really do not like Valentines day. I haven't had a good one, therefore I hate it and I really don't think anything is going to change with it soon. When I think of valentine's day, it reminds me of rough past relationships, and its another day to rub it in my face that I am not in a relationship. Ahhh what an enjoyable thing. So as I sit here and listen to my Frank Sinatra I have one thing to ask of valentines day this year. That something good happens, nothing out of this world, I am not asking for a huge romantic deal since it's not going to happen. But something small, and I know my parents are going to send me stuff as they always do and I thank them for that since they love me. But all I want is a Daisy. That's all. My favorite flower, just one.